Write it down…

This phrase has been showing up lately. I’m listening. As best I can.

Journaling for therapy. Since my mental health crisis last summer, I’ve been doing some intense PTSD-informed work with my regular therapist. Peeling back the cliches and discovering my authentic self, my own divinity, and my relationship with God. The Universe keeps putting people in my life who are guiding me in this truth.

An Anxiety Notebook, created by a therapist, based on CBT. No, not cock ball torture. (Though that does show up in my notebook!) Cognitive behavioral therapy. Powerful guided writings. Thank you Tony Law for bringing me into awareness of CBT.

Sexual banter, exploring my sexual feelings, needs and wants. Pains, wounds, healing. Shades of gray. Fifty in fact – or 50^5. Challenging old ways of showing up, while still breathing life into my spiritual and sexual journey.

Drifting from my “combattical” into a new chapter. My vert journey. My Lolita-based exploration of art, desire, sexuality and connection with Professor Peacock, CelebrateUU and C Todd Dudeoir. Mix in a couple soundscapes and a little 3D or 5D action, and explore the creative process.



I’ve come to the conclusion that I want to be able to share all of my art. And since I’ve already been banned twice with my recent C Todd Dudeoir posts, I know I need to create a safe space where I can explore. I think Patreon will give me that safe space to explore my own desires, thoughts, feelings, and creations without fear of trolls or banning. So all of me can show up. All of my art.

I’ll still do some writing here. And sharing on my website or Insta feed. So keep in touch however works best for you!

Thank you to my fellow artists who inspire, inform, collaborate and lift up. They told me to swim with the dolphins. I’m finding my pod.

Inspired by my fearless models and muses, Brandon, Stephen, Joe, Jeremiah, Josh, Austin, Devon and others who have crossed my path – for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Give me a little time. I’ll let you know when I’ve got the new space ready to go. Done is better than perfect. Goodish rules. I will continue to evolve.

Thanks for listening,

Keep tellin’ the story.


Professor C Todd Peacock III
Community Artivist, Connector, Storyteller & Healer


He who works with his hands and his head and his heart is an artist

Francis of Assisi

I’ve always had a fascination with hands.

Particularly a man’s hand.

I know where I get it from.

A boyhood crush.

I took pictures of his hands.

He understand my infatuation.

He stopped being my friend.

I have lived with that shame.

Slowly, I’m identifying those experiences and unpacking them – so I can retrain my thinking, rewire my brain, reconstruct my core inner beliefs.

Sounds hokey but I can sense a small shift. Some days.

BuBA calls them Soul Prints.

For now, I just call them ghost memories. They come back as needed. To teach me something new.

Thanks for listening,

Keep tellin’ the story.


Professor C Todd Peacock III
embracing the artivist buried in stone

His Hands

Inspired by Polish Hospitality

The collection I created along my RSA journey reflects my evolving spiritual and artistic expressions rooted in asset-based community development (ABCD), which sees the world as a place of abundance instead of scarcity. 

Coming out of this journey, I am bringing forward several pieces of work as The Community Well in 5D as part of the The Religion, Spirituality, and the Arts (RSA) program of the IUPUI Arts and Humanities. I’ll be joined by several other artists from our RSA2022 cohort at The Harrison Center next month!

Several of my works build on work from other artists in a collaborative way.

I loved the story behind Katie Ito​’s beggar bowl titled “Is There a Place for Me at Your Table?” With her permission, I’ve created a repurposed display of this beggar’s bowl in the context of my larger installation.

Katie’s story reminded me of my Polish grandmother’s tradition to set an extra place at the table for the unannounced guest. This has taken on a deeper significance in light of the outpouring of Polish hospitality during the current war in Ukraine.

I will premiere a behind the scenes look on opening night at 6pm. Join me on YouTube — or even better, be there in person!⁠

Come to the First Friday event at The Harrison Center on Friday April 1 from 6-9pm to see how I’ve used Katie’s inspiration!

Event information at https://fb.me/e/2mzThtP8c

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