Returning to The Rooms

Born Again. Again.

Yesterday was another milestone in my recovery journey.

I returned to The Rooms. And found God. Again.

If you know a little of my story, you know God has been in and out of my life. Lately, I’ve been a little angry with Her. But, I didn’t realize how deep that anger was until yesterday, sitting in another church basement with a bunch of recovering addicts.

Community Room - Broadway UMC
The Church Basement – Broadway UMC, December 2017.
The Community Room (its common name) is used today to host a weekly Queer NA meeting.

I didn’t realize how deep that anger was until I heard another addict talk about how angry he was at God for something in his life. That’s when I realized that I had been keeping score. And in my newly appointed position as The Right Reverend Lord C. August Peacock III, I felt like I had earned the right to be Divine.

Are we Divine?

In one sense, I’m right. I am Divine. As are you, As was Jesus. As was Buddha. As were all the great prophets and teachers and guides. That’s the Truth that I’ve come to believe in my journey of life. I am even working on a little ditty that tells that story!

I have decided to abandon Jesus.

He’s just a prophet like all the others.

His book’s just stories for livin’ life right

No turning back, no turning back.

Sung with Ukulele to the tune of “I Have Decided to Follow Jesus

It’s all about CONTROL!

But in accepting my Divinity, I also took back Control.

If I can change my thoughts, which change my feelings and emotions, then by God, I must be in Control. I believed for a moment that if I was good enough, kind enough, loving enough – that I could control the Outcomes! I could fix the past and stop hurting. I could fix the future and stop the anxiety.

And then I heard another addict share about Letting Go, and Letting God.

Pin drop.

At the end of the day, all of these things are true.

I am Divine.

I can change my emotions by more carefully changing my thought patterns.

And yet, as the story goes, I am NOT in control.

Now we can debate about the existence of God, of the Son of God and even the Blessed Mary, Mother of God.

Or we can accept our Divine Humanity, and accept that while we are wonderfully rich and complex human beings with souls, we are NOT in control of anything other than our thoughts, actions and beliefs.

And in that acceptance, comes great Peace. Or as they say, Serenity.


So just for today, God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I can not change, the Courage to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the difference.

These little things matter.

These little things work.

These expressions are mantras.

Does God exist?

Yes, Virginia. God does exist. And yes, there is a Santa Claus. But that’s a different story for a different day.

Who is God? What is God?

GOD. Good Orderly Direction

GOD. The Doorknob.

GOD. The Universe

GOD. Energy

GOD. The Golden Rule

GOD. The Golden Ratio

GOD. You and Me and Jesus.

GOD. Love

GOD. Take your pick. Whatever works for you. But pick something!

Your peace depends on it.

And for God’s sake, give Her back the wheel! She knows what She’s doing.

Thanks for listening.

Keep tellin’ the story.

Signed ever faithfully,

The Right Reverend Lord C. August Peacock III

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I see life as full of possibilities and the world full of beautiful people possessing unique and often untapped talents. I’m a learner and connector, seeking ways to leverage the abundance in this world through strong community.

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