What have I learned…

Hello gentle readers. It’s been awhile since I’ve slowed down enough to write.

So here I am. Rolling with the flow of life. Embracing my inner BuBA.

What are my superpowers?

I get energized by making connections, synthesizing ideas, seeing patterns or relationships. Information. People. Stories. Songs. Ideas. Images.

I’m consistent in brainstorming new ideas, concepts, approaches, questions, new ways of looking at things.

I’m a gemini – not fully understanding what that helps me bring to the table, but I’ve had glimpses.

I live on a spectrum of spectrums. I’m more fluid than I’ve historically understood. I don’t know how that shows up, but I’m going to let more of that come up.

Sadly, I learned how to navigate in a conservative Corporate culture that I can now see (glimpses) of systemic racism, sexism, homophobia and what I now understand as transphobia – even though that was still very underground. I believe that is changing, but only in the backdrop of sweeping anti-trans legislation, being orchestrated by a very conservative caucus. And if you think that’s hyperbole, reach out to me. I’ll show you some scary stuff.

But I digress

Learning to pass in a binary world

I say sadly because I got very good at passing in that culture, and largely succeeding. I’m pretty good at “playing the game” in a White, cis male-dominated heteronormative culture. I’m learning that I’m not as good at succeeding in today’s world – where I’m being asked to step aside and let others have the spotlight. Or that’s how it FEELS to many of us. Let’s go there. GWM of a certain age.

But, I’m also eager to learn. Slow to grasp, resistant to fully own. But once I do, I’m understanding the greater battle going on. Humans are uniquely evolved and positioned to witness our own demise as we live through the Anthropocene. We just visited the Chicago Museum of Science and Industry. Mind blown.

But I digress.

The reality is we are evolving to life on a spectrum – a messy, magical, bizarre, surprising, blending of light and darkness and everything in between.

What have I learned as an independent organizer?

I was in a virtual demonstration for Action Builder. One of the other participants introduced himself as an independent community organizer. I love it.

I think the only thing I’d add is I am an interdependent community organizer. Because this isn’t about one dominant group taking over the spotlight. It’s about the old guard learning how to stay in the game, be valued for our experience and connection to our fathers’ father – while still evolving with the Universe.

Community Artivist, Connector & Reflector

The connections are popping up so often I can’t name them all.

I was in another panel discussion on Diversity, Oppression, and Privilege at Ball State this week. I’m learning to listen more. It’s helping.

I listened to one of the participants describe how they have taken their experiences growing up in the “one down” position of a power dynamic.

It’s taught them a couple lessons.

What are my lessons?

Know thyself.

Be thyself

Practice self-care, which includes knowing your own personal capacity, pace and/or rhythm so you don’t burnout

Manage transitions (ok I threw that one in…) – micro, macro, inside my head, out in the world, all of them!

Learn self-regulation, which is different than numbing yourself, shutting off emotions – as White men have been socialized and raised for generations – but worse in my father’s father’s time. And my mother’s father’s time. So, as a GWM who passed in Corporate America – I really have NO experience with self-regulation, because I could get away with it. We could get away with it. Now that the dinner seating is being rearranged, we must skill up on this.

I know – I said I’m probably late to the game. But, I like to percolate and overthink.

Oh, he also talked about how he uses journaling to help with all of this.

BuBA. Buddha and the Bad Ass.

What does this have to do with the price of tea in Ukraine?

Absolutely nothing. But someday, this may become a memoire.

As I was saying. I have a lot to relearn.

Calling in, not calling out.

Self-regulating, being able to stay present and engaged

Better understanding capacity – or throughput – or flow

Thanks for listening,

Keep tellin’ the story.


Professor C Todd Peacock III
Community Artivist, Connector, Storyteller & Healer


He who works with his hands and his head and his heart is an artist

Francis of Assisi

I’ve always had a fascination with hands.

Particularly a man’s hand.

I know where I get it from.

A boyhood crush.

I took pictures of his hands.

He understand my infatuation.

He stopped being my friend.

I have lived with that shame.

Slowly, I’m identifying those experiences and unpacking them – so I can retrain my thinking, rewire my brain, reconstruct my core inner beliefs.

Sounds hokey but I can sense a small shift. Some days.

BuBA calls them Soul Prints.

For now, I just call them ghost memories. They come back as needed. To teach me something new.

Thanks for listening,

Keep tellin’ the story.


Professor C Todd Peacock III
embracing the artivist buried in stone

His Hands

Inspired by Polish Hospitality

The collection I created along my RSA journey reflects my evolving spiritual and artistic expressions rooted in asset-based community development (ABCD), which sees the world as a place of abundance instead of scarcity. 

Coming out of this journey, I am bringing forward several pieces of work as The Community Well in 5D as part of the The Religion, Spirituality, and the Arts (RSA) program of the IUPUI Arts and Humanities. I’ll be joined by several other artists from our RSA2022 cohort at The Harrison Center next month!

Several of my works build on work from other artists in a collaborative way.

I loved the story behind Katie Ito​’s beggar bowl titled “Is There a Place for Me at Your Table?” With her permission, I’ve created a repurposed display of this beggar’s bowl in the context of my larger installation.

Katie’s story reminded me of my Polish grandmother’s tradition to set an extra place at the table for the unannounced guest. This has taken on a deeper significance in light of the outpouring of Polish hospitality during the current war in Ukraine.

I will premiere a behind the scenes look on opening night at 6pm. Join me on YouTube — or even better, be there in person!⁠

Come to the First Friday event at The Harrison Center on Friday April 1 from 6-9pm to see how I’ve used Katie’s inspiration!

Event information at https://fb.me/e/2mzThtP8c

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